BOYFRIEND! WOW

I think I have a boyfriend.The reason I say think is because it's really up to me if that's what I want to call him.He is really a very nice man he's 6 yrs older than me which is not a problem.He treats me like I'm a queen and he's in no rush to jump in the bed which I think is pretty cool.Especially since we've been dating for 2 months.Now don't get me wrong I do want it to happen eventually but since my hubby haven't signed the divorce papers yet I'm still married although we've been separated for 6 yrs.And I still was giving him control over my life.He moved on with his girlfriend and I jus sat back and watched life pass me by as I overate to compensate for not having him around anymore.I wouldn't look at another man because in my mind I felt like I had to stay true to him even though he could careless about me or my feelings.And as the wt began to fall off I started loving myself and decided to take my life back.Just because it didn't work with him didn't mean noone else couldn't love me.And I'm really happy now.Not because of the man ,not because of the wt but because I finally see what God saw in me all the time, a beautiful creation.And as for the boyfriend I will continue to keep it slow because I don't need no man to define who I am and besides I want to make sure this feels right with my spirit.I know there is no perfect man no more than a perfect relationship but the difference this go around is I love me and I refuse to just settle for anything or anyone.That old Tonia is gone that low self-esteem left right along with her.I'm better now and thru the grace of God I will continue this journey with my head held HIGH!