The Boyfriend

Well I'm not use to this relationship thing so I'm really messing it up.For one its too good to be true that someone could really want to be with me big as I am.Then he's totally the opposite of what I like in a man He's too thin for me just plan ole skinny.And I have a real problem with that I can imagine the people looking at us and saying what the hell he gone do with that fat a woman and calling us laurel and hardy I know I shouldnt think like that but this wt thing is really got me going crazy.He and I been spending alot of time together getting to know one another and I do like him but I fear that he will wake up one day and see how big I am and change his mind about wanting to be with me.If he was like 40 lbs heavier I wouldnt be thinking like this.Today I told him a little about how I was feeling but not everything he told me that if I need to take some time to see if this is what I really want he'll understand.So thats what I'm doing.You know I actually forgot how complicated relationships can be.So I just pray that God directs me in the right path.