Goodbye

Well Mr.Henry died last week and I know he's gone on to a better place although he leaves a void in all the hearts of the people who knew him and loved him.I got off track with managing my wt I even gained a pound or two.I quit wt watchers as well.Now I regret that cause I don't have anyone to share my success with.I've been very depressed lately.I can't figure out what it is I want out of life or what I can do to enhance this life.I met this guy online we been communicating but I don't want it to go any further than e-mail or chat.I still have a problem with someone actually wanting and loving me.I don't know if it's because of my wt orbecause of my bad marriage.I don't know.But I feel alot better now that I've gotten over my slump I been exercising more and watching what I eat I still use the pt system.So I'm confident that the weight will start back coming off I was at a 65 lb loss now its about 62.5 loss so I need to lose that 2.5 lbs.And thats my goal then I will push forward from there.One thing I have learned thru all of this is we have to learn to take care of ourselves being overweight has so many health disadvantages there's heart disease,high bloodpressure,sleep apnea and even some cancer.And I want to live.I want to be able to walk down the street without thinking are they talking about my wt.I want to walk outside with my head up feeling extremely confident that I am beautiful in body as well as mind.But I am glad it's comin off slowly because I don't ever want to see that old fat girl again.This week I said goodbye to Mr.Henry in a lil while longer I'll say goodbye to that fat girl.